I have been struggling lately with receiving...
I feel as though I am in debt to those who give. I am not believing that I am worthy to receive the gift freely, but that I have to pay something back in order to justify myself.
I feel awkward receiving and saying 'thank you'; that word isn't enough.
It has come about quite suddenly. I have not struggled with this in a long time. I realise that God is highlighting an area in my heart where I have some ungodly beliefs about myself and other people. But I also feel that this is something that I have 'walked into' in the last week. There have even been some strong feelings of shame there, which again, I have not felt in a while.
I am wondering, just throwing this out there...maybe there is someone/some people in our Junction J community that may be struggling with the same thing right now. I am going to be bold and even say that I feel that the Father is saying (i am speaking to my own spirit right now too) that there is a limitation that you have put on what he is trying to give you right now. You are in need of something and he is desiring to pour it out over you, but you are not receiving it to the fullest because you have believed the lie that you are not worth the answer to your prayer and your need.
Father, we open up our hearts to receive what you have for us to the fullest extent - life in all its fullness, life in abundance, life to the max. We are not workers who need to earn your love and your blessings. We are not workers who need to earn each other's love and blessings and gifts. We are sons and daughters. You LOVE to bless us and provide for us. it is your JOY, YOUR ABSOLUTE DELIGHT.
I speak to my spirit and yours and say, be filled with joy and thankfulness that your Father is for you. Allow him to pour out EVERYTHING that he has for you. RECEIVE. You are worthy of love and good things. You are worthy of God's favour. You do not need to moan or worry or manipulate the situation. EXPECT GOOD THINGS.
Give out of joy and love, not out of obligation. bless and be blessed. just enjoy it.
I repent for believing the lie that I am not worth your goodness, and that I have to pay you back or work for your love.
I forgive all those who have contributed to me believing that lie.
I agree with your truth Father that I am your child and that you lavishly poured out your goodness and love into my life and that I can freely receive and freely give
I expect good things from you Daddy. I expect your goodness to follow me all the days of my life. to receive a double portion instead of shame
Nothing that happens in my life is outside of your net or control or protection or provision. I RECEIVE YOU.
THANK YOU PAPA!!! :D