There is some amazing writings and discussions going on in the writings group, which I heartily recommend you checking out if you haven't already. You have to join the group to see what's happening.
Gordon Harris is talking about, among other things, the trinity. It's really inspiring and we have kinda been spurring one another on with it - certainly he has been encouraging me to dig in deeper.
I have to confess that I have been a little stuck with things recently. It began in my journaling on September 7. Here's what I wrote:
"Lord, the sentence,
'God draws near to us in such a way as to draw us near to himself within the circle of knowing himself.'
Describes the community of love so well.
But what bearing does that have on my life? What does it mean? How does it change me? How does it demand or even ask politely that I live my life?
It isn't giving me magical powers (by that I mean signs, wonders and miracles)
or giving me fame or fortune,
or giving me life,
or really making me different.
This is not about WIIFM, 'what's in it for me', but a yearning and longing to be different. After all, Jesus was different and changed the world around him.
So maybe I am not living in that community. Positionally, theologically I am, but in reality I am not. My life doesn't appear to reflect living in a community of love with the almighty, supreme being, God."
I guess I was kind of frustrated, and wondering what I was missing. It's great to talk about the trinity, but really, it has to have a bearing on my life, to change me in some way.
I am realizing how results orientated I am, and so I want to see the evidence of God. I was talking to Jo's dad Norman today, and he mentioned that we want God to be like a bank account, that we can deposit our investment, and then see the progress. Wow, I am so like that - I want to see the progress of how my investment in God is going. But it's not like that.
Anyway, two days ago, I came across a verse from Jeremiah that unstuck me and undid me. Here it is, from the NIV:
but let him who boasts boast about this:
that he understands and knows me,
that I am the LORD, who exercises kindness,
justice and righteousness on earth,
for in these I delight,”
declares the LORD.
(Jeremiah 9:24)
It just put me back on track - God made me to have relationship and experience with him, and my goal is simply to walk with him, so that I can understand and know him. Everything else falls out of that.
Yours, back at peace and content with him, Russ